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09 February 2010 @ 06:14 am
The last look back is black  
Excuse me while I take a break from shit and post a quick entry for my sanity's sake~

FFFF--Who the fuck falls asleep while eating dinner and wakes up 240375 hours later? Forgot to drink my drugs too! That's four pills ffff what would my doctor say? He expects me to strictly follow it orz.

I have no faith that my epic cramming skills can finish a ~15page short story by 8am tomorrow but I will die trying!

There's that exam I missed last week for being such a weakling with epic low tolerance to pain to worry about too.

Plus there's still that report I have to present that our class CAN NEVER SEEM TO GET OVER WITH AAAA.

Among others.

OH, OH! AND YOU KNOW WHAT. I am struggling, resisting the urge to do memes from the awesome fags and reply to entries/comments of my beloved flist BECAUSE EVERYONE KNOWS HOW LONG I TAKE WITH EVERYTHING ELJAY-RELATED.

If I could, I wouldn't sleep at all. But to my chagrin, sleeping actually helps clear my mind so maybe I need it for working on shit too!

I miss, miss, miss, miss drowning myself in fandom, playing with my bb, fagging with my friends, and sleeping just because I can, to name a few. And I'm not even even working on thesis yet! What more when the time comes? I wonder how the potential graduates cope? ;o; THERE IS NO EASY COURSE IN COLLEGE, EVERYTHING IS INSANE!

Why can't a single day last 44 hours like on some random planet I am not aware of? All I really want (and need) is more time. Or at least control over my body so I won't fall asleep when I can't afford to!

Okay, bye!

ps, Shameless plug while I'm already here! /o/ Local people on my list, please vote for the bbs on MYX? It would mean so much to me~ Just send MYX VOTE WORLD BEHIND MY WALL to 2366! Even an sms from you can make all the difference, danke danke! /fag

Mood: frustrated
Music: Beichte - Tokio Hotel
see-saw margery daw: friendship is a beautiful thingmargerydaw_s2 on February 8th, 2010 07:30 pm (UTC)
Bakang Batugan: Securekyoy on February 12th, 2010 10:21 pm (UTC)
Better late than never! /excuses
( ): [CG] L&S ♠ Clinglazuline on February 8th, 2010 07:45 pm (UTC)
Tell me about it, I do the same sorts of things. I start on my work early, hoping to have it finished ahead of time. But it always ends up getting finished at the last possible minute or even late. ;; And my sleeping habits are beyond terrible. Sometimes, I skip classes or go in late, just 'cause I want to sleep in an extra hour or two.

Fandom and anything fun is so far away from my mind, it's depressing. So you and me both, kyoy; I feel your pain. :( /hug
Bakang Batugan: Clingykyoy on February 12th, 2010 10:26 pm (UTC)
Better late than never! /excuses
Aww bb. I feel a bit better someone relates but I don't like how you have to go through sth similar to what I am. ;o;

Wew stress. My parents are starting to get concerned about our school requirements. They're wondering why the hell college is so demanding when it was fairly manageable during their time. I ENVY YOU MOM AND DAD ;o;

My only connection to fandom is a friend who spams me with links via Skype or fags with me when we meet. I should be grateful I'm still somehow updated on at least Tokio Hotel but this really is getting kinda depressing :<

Can't wait for that semi-break (before summer classes lolwew) we get in a month or so, when is yours bb? ;o;
( ): [CG] L&S ♠ Comfortlazuline on February 12th, 2010 11:28 pm (UTC)
We can work through it together, at least. ;o;'

I doubt my parents had as much work when they were in college, too, but my mom still thinks I have nothing to do. ;; So that's pretty frustrating.....

That's great. c: At least you have someone like that and you're still updated on Tokio Hotel. I'm just watching two anime series atm - Durarara and Kimi ni Todoke - and that's it for anything fandom-related. :[

That semi-break is something to look forward to, then! Actually, my break just started, lol. We have a week off school, because of something called "Reading Week" here. .......But nobody even reads during the break, lmao.
ashitaenomerodi on February 8th, 2010 08:27 pm (UTC)
Poor Kyoy-chan. I'm so sorry. *hugs you and gives you some tea* >:
Bakang Batugan: Relievedkyoy on February 12th, 2010 10:28 pm (UTC)
Better late than never! /excuses
No need to apologize dear ♥

Thanks for the concern, it really helps~

langit!: i choose you!!11 [shujinkachu]alabapoy on February 9th, 2010 12:20 am (UTC)
Kyoy, kaya mo yan dahil isa kang Art Stud!
Bakang Batugan: Accomplishedkyoy on February 9th, 2010 01:20 pm (UTC)
Salamat Pyoooor! Yeah Art Stud, woot! /o/

Lol nakakalungkot ba na hindi majors ang sumisira ng utak ko ngayon? Pa-importante amp.
a hurricane that keeps you there, safeampersandals on February 9th, 2010 05:16 am (UTC)
You should post your short story when you're done! XD But omg, how do you fall asleep while eating dinner??? WAH. D:

Good luck with the workload! And take care of yourself, ok?
Bakang Batugan: Determinedkyoy on February 12th, 2010 10:32 pm (UTC)
Better late than never! /excuses
Ahaha if I think it's decent enough, I will~

Well, about dinner. I was eating on my bed so maybe the comfort was inviting? But orz stillll! I was eating for goodness sake! ;o;

Thank you! ♥ I hope yours is relatively okay~ Thanks so much again! /grateful
Bakang Batugan: ORZkyoy on February 12th, 2010 10:38 pm (UTC)
Re: Better late than never! /excuses
Oh, forgot to mention how I woke up with bits of food on my bed (eww) and my plate on a safe place. (Thank you mom, for cleaning up after me! <3)
l_trickster_l on February 9th, 2010 08:12 am (UTC)
are you WRITING a story? *so proud*

20 minute powernaps. alarm clocks. superyaya knocking on your door. put a godawful loud message alert tone and i'll spam you when needed.

and as always, SICH BESSER FÜHLEN!
Bakang Batugan: Specialkyoy on February 12th, 2010 10:36 pm (UTC)
Better late than never! /excuses
I'm attempting to! /working on it

Hate how weak my body is when it comes to sleep ;o; Even my Schrei alert tone can't wake me up, despite snoozed and all, etcetera. I remember hearing it disturb my sleep several times but I also remember being too tired to care /didn't even get up wew

and as always, VIELEN DANK, TOMI! ♥