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19 December 2011 @ 10:18 am
Can't stop feeling  

Crystal Ayra Frias Padilla and her sister, Michelle Adeline Frias Padilla passed away during the Sendong typhoon. Please take a moment of silence and pray for their souls, along with everyone else who was taken away by this horrible tragedy and that they may all rest in peace. Let us also pray that there will no longer be any casualties and that all the missing people have survived and will be found. For information on how to help, please check out this post. To give donations directly to the Padilla family, please read Anriz's post.

I don't know what to say, can't describe all these feelings bursting within me since I found out. A day has passed since I found out and I'm still hoping so much this isn't true.

Went to sleep last night hoping it will all go away but it's now tomorrow and she's still gone. How do people even begin to deal with something like this? Life is so unfair. I can't imagine how her family must feel. Can't stop crying from time to time. When do you start feeling better?

I've lost too much close family and friends this year but for some reason, her passing is such a big wake-up call for me. Things like this make you realize all over again just how short life is. You keep thinking there will always be more time but then a moment comes where you're in a room with your closest friends, and you hear the news, and it all just comes crashing down on you. I guess I'm lucky in a way, to have been with them during that time.

There are so many fond memories I have of you. And I only have good ones. Going through old pictures and blog posts about us breaks and melts my heart. You are one of the reasons that I love my high school years so much and I am so grateful you have been a part of life. You've always been an inspiration to me. When I read the article you shared in your last post, I couldn't help but tear up all over again.

Don’t take for granted the small things: the last time the sun kisses your face before three days of rain or having a pair of eyes to look into, hands to hold. A warm bed to collapse into at the end of a long day and an illuminated sky on a clear night. Embrace the people you can sit in silence with, and the ones who make you laugh for hours with little effort. The small things add up to big things, the big things add up to everything. Don’t take this for granted.

I don't feel better since I found out, I don't know how I ever will. Things just feel more familiar now. The truth is sinking in, but not deep enough. There will never be enough time in the world to spend with a person as wonderful as you. I will never stop wishing we had more time or that I could see you again. If only all the wishful thinking in the world could bring you back. But I have to stop thinking like this, I have to let go sometime. I'm just not ready yet. You are an important part of my everything, Umag. Thank you for all the memories. I will remember and cherish them forever.

How I wish I could fly over to where you are and say goodbye properly. I need to see you one last time even though I know I'll break down and cry shamelessly in front of you. But I know you will be with us in the mass we're holding for you tonight and knowing you are among us will be enough.

The last time we met was at the cinemas after watching Toy Story 3. And oh God, that was so long ago and we were only able to exchange short but sincere I-miss-you's. We didn’t go together, but we found each other anyway. It’s one of the most beautiful stories about friendship that I know and you are one of most—in every sense of the word—beautiful friends I am lucky to have known. Rest in peace beyond infinity, my dearest friend. I will never forget you. Words cannot express how much I love you but I'm sure you already know how I feel. We’ll find each other again someday.

Mood: morose
Music: Friend Like You - Joshua Radin
miss zerodusk037 on December 19th, 2011 02:06 am (UTC)
:( *hugs you tight*

My condolences.
Lira: hurtseikochan on December 19th, 2011 06:18 am (UTC)
My condolences for your loss, darling. All of you. This was a beautiful tribute. I hope all of you find peace soon.
a hurricane that keeps you there, safe: merlin | morgana: tearsampersandals on December 19th, 2011 08:35 am (UTC)
I'm so sorry. I mostly know her as Sev's high school friend who basketball-geeks with her and has a thing for that thing in pad paper. I hope you, her friends and her family get through this; it moves me to see her so cherished and so loved.


magic少女。: CCS ・ ss ・ listenboukenrider on December 19th, 2011 09:59 am (UTC)
condolences, kyoy :c
i lost a childhood friend during the middle of the year and yeah it... sucks. /hugs
rise ☆: pocahontas ❙ to make it bettertsukihane on December 19th, 2011 11:46 am (UTC)
I'm so sorry, my condolences /hugs
Mushroommushroom18 on December 19th, 2011 03:16 pm (UTC)
My sincerest condolences, dear.
Sunny Himalayan Bunny: Utenaclymnestra on December 25th, 2011 01:57 am (UTC)
Really late to this because I'm abroad and internet's limited, but I'm so so sorry -- their passing away rocked the entire Pauline community, and reading this brought tears to my eyes.

I wish I could go over to wherever you are and give you the biggest hug~

My sincere condolences, and well wishes to you and her entire family. I'm certain she's found her peace and is with you this Christmas ~